WEll, he has nothing better to do but to spread things about me. Pathetic. Right, and think that I don't know, still can tell people don't fall for me, i iwll cheat their feelings, Lucky ken knows WHAT'S GOING ON, lucky everytime i update him whatever happens, he knows what kind of person I am.  AND THANKS GOD, that I have friends who see what's going on and knows me.

Clarified things, when i flirt with that guy, I have my reasons, because at tt point of time, i never thought of getting back with you becuse you FUCKING USED VIOLENCE ON ME AND PLEASE, we already broke up and I DIDN'T CHEAT YOUR FEELINGS . SO STOP TELLING PEOPLE I CHEAT YOUR FEELINGS. 

- get myself distracted

- get a fucking sub.

- pretend it's you

At least when tt friend of mine, tries to meet up with me, even TILL NOW, i still didn't want to meet him. And it's until then , i realized it's too pain to let you go, then i decided that I want to go back and try. And ON THAT VERY DAY, I didn't cheat on your feelings at all, I was sincere about going back and I DID'NT EVEN WANNA MSG THAT GUY AT ALL. Until you check my phone, then what, start spreading. Don't come tell me, i never do wrong , i scared what.. PCB, you try go around telling people your own stuff la.. why? don't dare huh? SCARED HUH? knn. 

YES, it's my fault for flirting you expect me to apologise but you? that day in double O? did you even? nah, you just think it's me, It's me who make u do it. BUT WHAT ABOUT ME?! YOU FUCKING STRANGLED ME AND I STILL BEGGING YOU BACK

Not like you, right after a break up on that very night, you got so desperate, you go double O to grind that girl, french with that girl called michelle, it just makes you damn cheap to even do that to a stranger, that's fucking gross.

I don't know what you did after that in the night cause you went missing with the fact that you have extremely high sex drive but it's expected anyway. And don't think I don't know you been grinding with girls in club behind my back. People been seeing you doing that but i didn't even question you about it. Now you perfect , you french with other girls, grind with other girls, you "perfect bf.." I merely flirt with this guy whom I don't even feel like meeting at all, "i flirt, i cheat your feelings"  Everything you can lo.... I do I wrong, you do you right. 

eh, seriously, WTF LAH...

Whatever lah.. go spread lah if that makes you happy. Super pathetic.

Go attract attention from girls then they will pity you then maybe think you're a nice guy and considering letting you screw.

And stop acting like you done nothing wrong, You tried to strangle me that night, you used violence on me you mf and you didn't even apologize and you expect me to apologize?

hong zhi sheng, stop thinking about what people done wrong. Start thinking about what you have done first. You can't even apologise properly, don't expect people to do the same to you.

I have degraded myself to ask some you back. Put down my ego and beg you back, what i get? you spreading things about me without even telling people what you did to me. 

you giving me fake hopes .

you asking me to change this and that but nothing about yourself.

pin out all my fucking shits but never once was about yourself.

you have pushed your limits.

She was right, most guys always push blames to girls. And he was one of the 2nd typical ones I ever met. At least derek didn't. 

Ken : Do you hate him now?

Me : Half half

Ken: He don't want you and want to spoil your name.

-_- another typical one. 

And don't think I don't feel a shit about this post, it hurts when I blog this shit out saying all these things about you just that after so much shits you spread about me, it's time for me to stand up for myself. You cut my freedom, you created low self esteem in me, you cut my friends off, you cut my freedom all the time, you would just vent angers on me, esp when I did something wrong, like jsut because I wore a fake eyelash to work, you will get really mad and start scolding me. Then whatever I do, it's just really.... never.. enough for you.

Actually honestly speaking, I have been asking myself lately do I still love him. Maybe right now because am still mad at his childish acts. Still been thinking about him thou then was wondering could it be because am still so used to have him around me then suddenly he's not around, I lost a companion? Because I seriously don't feel as pain as how I used to anymore.

If the feeling could go, please go away soon so that I can move on.

I don't know if I should go on like this, he kept telling me to leave him alone, to fuck off from life, tell me, is this what he really wants? And If i really do, he will be happier right? I really don't know what to do. Was so angry so just now in the earlier post. Can't believe he's a xiao ren. Ahh.. now things have lead to this stage, should I just go?