Eversince his hp was off, everyday I would call his hp, try a few times a day, hoping that he will pick up.

AHH! it's sat!!! ferry Costa? how do you spell his name... HAHA! is in town. But didn't wanna go. Suddenly, I don't have the clubbing mood. Wanna stay home... and chill with my mochi.


I reckon he went in DB or something. He hasn't contacted me since then. Kinda miss him. There's so much things to do with him but he's just gone. sigh. Maybe he thinking that, I m out there enjoying but yet he's inside there suffering. I ain't. I miss him badly.

I wonder how is he doing inside now. I know it's stupid, after so much shit he caused me , i still think about him. Can't help it.


AHH~~~ Tomorrow gonna meet jos do assignment! Am switching course from marketing to tourism and hospitality! Was because marketing only specifiably focus on marketing whereas latter has more varieties in it!

WEE! New year coming. Am gonna start my life afresh! Time to lead a life like an adult.

I do wonder, is it just me or just that im down on luck. I have to encounter every sitaution people would last think of it. Gossiping will cause the rope to snap. IT WILL.

Maybe i should just limit my friends. Maybe I should stop commenting, Maybe i should start ignoring.

Ironically thou, i miss him . yeah... him him him.

You have got no idea how hurting to know that someone you love denying that he's spreading inane stories about you? Where by witness has acutally prove that he has been personally telling everyone of them.


He's a fucking jerk. He hit someone in camp and that guy is dying, I hope he goes to jail, I hope karma hits on him soon. Fuck you hong zhi sheng. you're FUCKED UP.

- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:11:31 PM)
just FUCK IT
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:11:57 PM)
i told u life has so many emotions
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:11:59 PM)
why dwell on one
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:12:02 PM)
when u have so many others
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:12:08 PM)
fuck Sadness and seek happiness
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:12:16 PM)
fuck ugly pple and look for beauty
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:12:19 PM)
example ur ex
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:12:21 PM)
HAHA
Amanda says: (9:14:18 PM)
LOL!!!
Amanda says: (9:14:19 PM)
wah
Amanda says: (9:14:23 PM)
u rock.. u fucking rock
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:14:42 PM)
dont be weak k
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:15:13 PM)
u r young
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:15:13 PM)
enjoy ur youth
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (9:15:13 PM)
u have the rest of ur old age life to be sad and pityful





It rocks to have such friend around.

- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:42:10 PM)
hihi :)
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:42:27 PM)
wasup
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:42:42 PM)
i heard some more news about u
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:42:54 PM)
ur ex said to my friend that
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:43:02 PM)
when u guys were still together
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:43:09 PM)
u went to ur another ex's home and had sex
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:43:13 PM)
is that true?

- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:48:24 PM)
thats all i heard so far
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:48:31 PM)
cuz i didnt want to quarrel wif my friend
Amanda says: (5:48:37 PM)
wah fuck
Amanda says: (5:48:39 PM)
hat's your friend name?
- Smack Kei - 景 - says: (5:48:45 PM)
and apparently he's been getting sympathy from pple



ZS, why? can't stand I moved on? you better watch your mouth. cb.


FIRSTLY, I DIDN'T WENT TO ANY EX HOUSE.
SECONDLY, STOP TRYING TO GET SYMPATHY FROM YOUR FRIENDS LOSER.
wah.. you really damn childish.

This is kim's dog. Miki . ps, this was taken when he's drowing and kim didn't know he's REALLY drowning until after the photo was taken. lol






Kei call this , OUTCAST . LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he's a loser. Aynway.. WEE!! KEI ROCKS!


Wah.. shopping and dinner was great today!! ARgh... too bad tml having bridging course

dreamt of him. Still miss him thou . It's really a waste that we just couldn't get along. I know we both still love each other, we simply just need to give in and stop breaking each other's trust and heart.



I really thought we both could get married and I always wanted to be together with him for the rest of my life. sigh. Actually I hope, one day when we sort our thoughts out, that we should learn how to love each other the right way, I would wanna be with him again. Despite many ppl I met, or hang out with, my heart only has him. Contradicting thou form the past few post. I was angry but despite how angry I am, I still love him. Yeah, it sucks. I missed those times when we first got together, the honeymoon period, it's the sweetest. But it always sweet when we both didn't quarrel or suspect each other.

I really miss him.


Tomorrow school start. SIAN! 9am till 6pm. wth.................... =(

BLEAH
Bah.. he's still the best afterall!
LOL!
I don't know why he cut ying's head off. lol
He's got those super cute smile. Thou he's like... old? LOL! but he still look young!
i was first attracted to this ass 3 yrs ago was his smile! Air steward. Mai siao siao.
WHAT'S UP MAN

Cass, Benji , Me , Ying and Vic
At jap 1
Prics and jia li! Look at ken's face. LOL
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEN! got him a agnes b cufflink and money clip set. Forgot to take a photo of it. darn.
MOCHI!

Local breeds have nude colour paws.
And here is the love of my life. Mochi. The first day I got him home.
SUPER FAT. No kid.
Spasm. (AT ericsson pet farm)

First ugliest and smelliest dog I ever had, for just a day,
That's xiao hei, familiar thou but can't remember when I met him.
Then Realised that JACK CAME ALONG TOO!!
Rounding and darren and friends!
Deon and deon!
At Explorer, forgot who'se birthday. :X Janice's friends! Anyway , explorer is a damn nice place to chill! Good food + Goood scenery = DOPE.

Super tired. DRINK DRINK DRINK!!! eh guess what happened when i was on this cab going home? This malay driver, quite young thou.


Uncle "Did you went to zouk out?"

ME " -_____- I missed it"

Uncle " WHY? alot of people went, i heard from my friends it's so fun"

Me " I KNOW!! I regretted sia............ "







-_________-



LADIES NIGHT!!!! WOOO!!

WOO~~ at bugis pub Drinking now with victor and friends!!! high high~~ LOL?!

I regretted geting back with him. I was happy without him, I really was. Now all he can do is whenever he's angry, he calls me a slut. Then now he twist his words, saying that he never lie... I m a fucking slut, it's over. Please, he just can never admit himself wrong.

To him, it's about him to change him, it's me that have to be changed. It;s me who cause him to change.

To me, it's about both of us. Despite what happened, we both have to adapt to each other and change together. when an arugement occus, both party has fault. But to him, it's always me, only me. If i argue back, he will say i started it. But to be fair, If i started it, he can back off , once he back off, an argument would not occur. He would never think his way. Super childish thinking. something hapened,
" you started what.. not me"
"You what"
"Please lah. go think lah.. i where got wrong, it's you lo"


But actually, Deeply i know he loves me.... Just that, his ego was controlling him. You know, if he could also change, our r/s definately will work out because I m more than willing to do so, ok, I m already really trying but he just kept showing me his attitude and temper, then when he get's mad, he will shout at me whereby i m keeping myself cool. I seriously feel that it will work but sadly, he ego has just ruined everything. I felt bad when I realised that my feelings aren't strong and I still wanna keep trying with him , i felt like i was lying to him instead. =\ BUT WHO CARES... should not feel guilty for such kind of turn off petty guy.


Wah, bth such kind of petty guy. Don't you agree meh? SUPER PETTY TO THE MAX and petty guys turns me off.


Girls, if you wanna go with someone, please find those that are no so proud and egolistic as this. This one is horrible and will never ad mit his fault one, cause he scared . I don't know what's with such guy. Seriously and honestly, he really digust me and make me feel super fan gan.


Suprisely, i didn't cry but was pissed that he actually have the guts to fuck me up for not trusting him then being contradicting.. Like I used to think that maybe the feelings are around, wasn't sure but now, I m sure. Feelings are as strong because if comes to such situation, I will spend my night crying but instead, after blogging the last post, i chat with darren till i doze off. damn shiok.


But girls, you know what's the best part after a break up and when tt guy msg you something and you know whatever he says it's gonna hurt you?


DELETE without reading it!! ( That is if you're sure that you don't want him anymore if not then hear what he has to say) And to me, it works. ^^



Time for work!

That farker's been lying to me.

"No i never meet any girl at all. Swear"


Then what i found out? you mbeen meeting up with that girl you met from powerhouse.


Then what you say? " Only her. with her friend. no one already."

Then what i found out? You met your flings.


Thei ask you nicely, you shout me at asking me what i want what i want. I only wanna find out what's going on. Then what? CB,,, you lie to me still can shout at me. HEy. FUCK YOU LAH!!!. YOU STILL CAN FUCK ME UP FOR NOTHING TRUSTING U. TRUST U LAN! KNN.


It;s over. You motherfucking horny bastard. Go fuck al you want. Fucking liar.


ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?! U HAVE SUCCESSFULY BROKE MY FUCKING HEART. IT"S OVER. I HATE U!!! FUCK U BASTARD! I HATE U


you fucking manwhore. FUCK OFF ok. JUST FUCK OUT. You can forget about thinking I will come back to you crying. NO. I WILL SHOW U HOW I MOVE ON. I WILL SHOW YOU I CAN FIND A BETTER GUY THAN YOU. I WILL SHOW YOU HOW HAPPY I WILL BE WITHOUT YOU. FUCK YOU . Just wait and see. Go spread about my stuff. I MAKE SURE EVERYONE KNOWS ABOUT YOU.

WAH, HE BROKE UP WITH ME!!! FUCKING SHIOK!!!! WOOO!!!!


FREEEDOM!! wah... i don't know. normallly someone will feel sad. But i feel happy. I don't know cause if i break up with him, i will feel regret but then he break up with me, I don't know, i just feel so relieved. Maybe because after i tried so hard, i know i did my part liao but he's just screwing things up so it's his loss. NVM!!!

All he can say was,,, ask me go with my fling. You know when ppl have flings or feel guilty conscience, they will start thinking that their love one is cheating on them, WATCH DANE COOK VICSIOUS CIRCLE video and you will know. Well, he's just guilty that he's been with his fling. But honestly, people know me, know what kind of person I m.

I only find darren special cause he doesn't treat me like a dirt, like how he does. And he's just gonna go around telling people how i ill treated him. This kid of person uh... really hopless, can't admit his fault, wanna go around screwing ppl's life up. Lose liao call ppl slut.

He just replied me saying, "so much for waiting me downstairs to give me surprise. I guess this surprise doesn't worht you. I go surprise other ppl. I;ve got a few special ones too, aren't too far from here" ---- SEE i told you. It's true, he's got flings too but just don't wanna admit. And he's been flirting too! wah, lucky ..... we break up now.


ah ren~~~~ :X

I have never seen anyone as crazy as him, He's like attempting to drive me crazy but twitching his words here and there, then when kana spotted, he will like laugh? i dunno. This guy is crazily insane. No wonder he has to go mental hospital.

I feel that this r/s no longer can work anymore. It' just filled with anger and he just cannot give in .. AT ALL.


Anyway, This r/s is really crazy. Don't know how long can I go on man. He claims like he's not revengful etc.. act like he's nice, but there;s something wrong deep inside his head. freaks me out man. Anyway.... mochi and my besties brighten my day up still!! wahahaha.


Will put up photos soon!

ahh.. DISAPPOINTMENT!

He told he when we broke up, he haven't being meeting any girl. But he did, some girl from clubs. He told me he haven't been chatting with any girl, but his flings.

I thought he was really faithful. But look at his firendster comments. Look at those girls. Still say I flirt. Look whose talking.


Gek xim sia. But well, it's alright, Am actually well prepared.


He just sent me a message after I told him I was sian about what happened with those girls and how he treated me when he's sick. HE'S BEEN THROWING HIS TEMPER AT ME. fucking hell.


Now he says " you continue sian lo, you got no right to say anythign. those comments were from before.. you totally can't say anything cos what you did was far worse, you're shit. I know I did nothing wrong n my conscience is clear, tt;s good enough for me. N from you, I see you slowly turning back to how you were."



- Yeah... When I do such things, You sian , you expect me to make it right for you. If not, you fuck me up.

-Know why am I so affected? Cause you lied.

-You know why you feel that u did nothing wrong? because you always feel that you're well despite what. Even to the extend frenching another girl in a club.


-PLease don't say I was turning back, if you realised, look at your attitude for the past few days. You're the one who'se showing temper. You're the one who's giving attitude. And I have to take a step back and remain calm. Please lah.. felt like he's stepping over my head. sickening.


Stop being a dastard.


Another msg, saying like, it's the leading one who always starts it. I only want the best for me. No preservernce to do anything.


THEN FUCK YOU CB?????

- yah what. I m always the leading one cause you can never have the guts to admit you starting at times too. Fuck dastard.

-Want to best for me? Who doesn't afer being treated like dog?

-No preserverence to do anything? THEN FUCK you . You try la.... I everything kan u . Then You find out I flirting with some flings, see you can preservenc and shit or not.. PLEASE lah.. don't talk like you super wei da. In this rs. it's ALLLL ABOUT YOU. Selfish bastard. Wah sickening childish asshole.


But think about it, I actually find it quite funny. It's like, he can never get my point and whenever I say point 1, he will presume it's point 2 and 3 but started on point 4. lol. Just reflected on the things we argued, I actually find it stupid. I mean things would be good if he learn some anger mangement because I sure did.. and am proud. ^^


How I wish he's like him because he knows how to treat me with respect, although we're just friends , but it would be nice if he learn from him like that in a r/s. =(



After calling my besties to talk about it, they went like " see, I told you liao...."
Mostly went " SEE, I TOLD YOU SO MANY TIMES LIAO!!!!!!!!" -> lol?!

but only one said.. " you just missed the best party ever" and this one made me feeeeel soooo depressed. BUT HEY, I sacrificed OK!? lol

-________________-

Found this photo on my desktop, taken on my birthday by my friend. Was holding my boss's dog, I was kinda freaked out because i think I placed my hands on the wrong side. LOL?




Been working and working.... woo... Love december's weather. WEE!! I missed zoukout, son been tempting me!!! friends been msging me!!!! ARGHHH..... Anyways, I hate mac. Can't change blog skins and recently haven't been online because my wireless got problem, mac keep hanging ( think because i left my lap top on for few days.. LOL) ARGH.. anyone know how to install Microsoft word? Depserate for one. ARHHH.. i hate mac.


Anyways, I GONNA LOOK FOR OUT FLEA MARKETS! Just pack my closet, total I have 3 HUGE BAGS of unwanted clothes. Some not even worn. Anyone can guide me along? or interested to start one with me?!!! or even wanna buy from me?!?!!? CALL ME OK!!! love u darlings!

After checking out his friendster comments, talking to his ex fling happily, deleting his own comments from her comments, don't even know what he's been doing, contacting his ex flings.. etc......... Then I have to cut contact from everyone, even good friends.

For no reason he's sick, I kana for nothing just because he feels claims that he's sick and cranky, sn I HAVE TO UNDERSTAND.. so, I have to shut up and let him be. (Peeps, If i were to be sick or cranky, and treats him the way how he treated me, CFM will quarrel or kana scolding, then he will start babbing about how fuck up i m, how unreasonable i m.. etc. ) Don't wanna comment no more, i reckon he's gonna call and screw me up or even just break up... I even bought him a super thick jacket to surprise him for it's also for his own good, don't want him to fall sick at such weather but what i get was well... SHIT. Sickening. Came to a point whereby I don't feel so like... affected like how I used to. Probably just tired..

Nah.. Am tired . But don't know why I wanna go on. Maybe for the sake of 1 year. Maybe I always thought things will be better.

I kinda regret doing so much things and feel not being so appreciated but well, am sure someone out there will appreciate and be really glad about that. CHEERS!!!


Time to REALLY catch up with old buddies. WEEEEEEEEEEEEE..........


Darren's out of town. -________- hate it.





I go pang sai. bye!

Love his black paw. SUPER CUTE.



























he looks angry. lol

THIS IS MY MOCHI!


















When i was resting, he creeps up and lay beside me.


















Then i cover blanket for him!















But still, he lies to hide under my bed.



















or sleep with my dad.

Damn stress. Don't know how to take care of mochi. Know the basic stuff want I wanna train it. =(
Anyway, are can food good? Some say it's bad, some say it's good. I don't know. I just want my mochi to be healthy and happy!


Gonna head down to pet safari to get toys and treats for mochi! Anyway, I MISS JANICE!

I BOUGHT A PUPPY! It's japanese splitz! DAMN CUTE. From aust..... it's a male pup! I called it MOCHI ...



omg! it's 3 months old! cost my dad $2300 , got it from ericssion pet farm! Was happy because it's damn beautiful and it's hidden at the back. NB. I saw one which was on display but there's this brown spot around the eye, make it look like panda. not nice and it's female. Then the guy brought out this SUPER CHIO ONE. omg@ I love my dad....


Then just now as i was etting up the cage, I was having a hard time. The puppy wouldn't leave me alone. its just keep lingering around my feet and stand in between my legs. I have to keep carrying it away but it just manage to find it's way back. awww.. makes my heart melt!!


So today must stay home and observe mochi.

Anyway, mom got a shih tzu from a friend of hers for $500. It;s overly price and the dog is 1 yr old. Then I realised i could get a better pup by adding 200+ and i don't really like that dog, it pee everywhere, it's irritating and stupid. Decided to return tomorrow, get the money and HEAD FOR PET FARM! Gonna get a Japanese spitz. HOT DOG.


Saw this once while one the way home with baby, it's so beautifuln It has this big black eye... omg.





























Bestie, most handsome bestie. Anyone interested? Am selling it. :D

Rebel.


Cb, keeep taking photo of my granny skirt.

YOU SEE.. HE JUST KEEP LAUGHING AT MY DRESSING. MF

Me and cass!!




Yesterday went to rebel! crowd wasn't that bad till late. hmm.. Djs are from the old MOS. hmm.. Actually, life been really good for me now. Well, after a fight of him couldn't stand the fact of me stating out his facts, he decided to give me a chance. Don't know for what intention , decided to take it.

But somehow, I seems to feel the worry feeling how i used to have, the anger and stuff. I don't know if I should even go back to him. I will lose everything again but I really wanna give a try, I feel that we love each other but am really scared.

Honestly, ever since my depression stopped, I have not been happier till today. All the old feelings came back. I feel cranky. I flare at ppl surrounding me.


Victor was angry at me. He claims to cut of ties with me if i go back to him but deeply, he just cares and I know he will definately still be there and support me! >.<