Yesterday when i went to find him, we hug again. I was smilling all the way because it's the one of the happiest moment, the truly happiest moment eversince we broke up. I decided that, I have to prove to him that I love him. I have to prove that I can be trust again. I have prove that, it's worth giving me the last chance and in order to prove that, I decided to cut conceal myself away from the outside world. I closed my friendster, my facebook. I gonna delete my msn and changed my hp number.

I know by proving these, he might not come back to me but I just want to prove for the moment that, I can do it.

People who had been there advising me, I would like to thank you. Despite your efforts, I really appreciate alot and I did take your advices but I m just a weakling. People who know me well will know how much I have always commited in a relationship. I commit my entire heart and soul to it. I will give it my best shot.


People who know me, will say " Aiya, go back like last time!! find another sub.. then u will fallfor him and eventually you will get over zs and viola! you get a new better guy!" or " go club lah... you like to club.. go flirt with guy,.. cfm will get over zs" or " come, i bring u to see cute guys, that's what you always like"


I tried... I felt so impotent, I don't even have inteerest in any guy I see now. I cried in clubs. I don't even wanna meet people whom i flirt with becuse i feel weird . It's not the old me anymore.
I've commited too much and i can't back out. I know whether it's if i want to but, it's not easy. It hurt so much that I am willing to do anything to take the pain away.

I will always remember those people those has been there for me. I will always remmeber you. I just need sometime away right now.



If i ever have the chance to repay you people back, i will. I promise.