Mom and dad's argument woke me up.

Normally, would just sink my head into his arms and he would just piak me to sleep.

Hearing her cries, I really don't know what to do. I hope they will be fine.


I have this very bad urge of seeing him but I've to hold myself back. Kept repeating to myself that it's over. Everything is over. He could never love you again, no matter what. It's over.

Despite severing ties with him, I still care about him. Like wonder how is he, what has he done today. Has he eaten? how his back? is he drinking again? Is he not sleeping again? how is he feeling? Did he cover blanket when he's asleep? When he fell asleep, he gets to tired to do anything. Stupid boy. Did he set his alarm? Can he wake up on time? Did he charge his hp?


I miss making milo for him every morning before he left me place for army. I would even get breads for him for find breakfast for him. Used to always fold his uniform for him. Put toothpaste on his tooth brush before he wakes up. Wake him up! set alarm every 5 mins so that tt lazy pig will get his ass of my bed. hee!

Always look at him tie his shoes laces, Hug him and kiss goodbye. then would msg for awhile till he reaches camp then I will go back sleep or sometimes, I can't sleep cause he isn't around to keep me warm.


Sigh. I would want to do all these again for him if I ever have the chance. Makes me feel like a housewife. hehe!



Had mangoes with victor yesterday,

He was like " Wah power. sour one I LIKE!!"
ME " Nice right, it's like sweet and sour! zs cannot take sour mangoes, he only like sweet kinds!"
Victor then went -__________- " why everything you do now, you will think of him or talk about him huh?
ME " Don't know lah.. going crazy. LOVE MAH.."