im-shawn@hotmail.com says:i tell u 1 thing u can belive and also don't belive.....
im-shawn@hotmail.com says:kim told me on saturday night that she want to comsume drug and report u to harm..........
.im-shawn@hotmail.com says:i repeated many time this is a dammed fuck up way.Amanda - That's it . It's over. says:she so cute uh
im-shawn@hotmail.com says:she is the kind of person who when she wrong u say her and she will try to kill u even more
im-shawn@hotmail.com says:i told u even thing coz my conscience tell me if i don say i cannot sleep well
im-shawn@hotmail.com says:u can don belive me but just be carefull....
im-shawn@hotmail.com says:if u want u can call her now to ask if she did say this 2 day ago.
Amanda - That's it . It's over. says:it's ok
im-shawn@hotmail.com says:if she dare to denail then u tell her to swear her whole famlily will die if she lie.....
im-shawn@hotmail.com says:its ok that u say i say de
.im-shawn@hotmail.com says:i know u no matter what still will care for her..
Amanda - That's it . It's over. says:if she wanna take me for granted it's ok..





3 years back, u slept with my ex. You told me u didn't mean it. I forgive u. You told me shawn, your recent ex, blackmailed u. I forgived u. Now, You share my secrets with your friends just because u think i m materialistic and even planned to ask your bf to find rich people, bed me , video me and post up internet.

After I've cooled down, i still talk to you, tell u to work and stufff as your dad isn't some big boss anymore, he's driving taxi now. i stil care for you but now what? take drugs and frame me? girl, you still haven't grow up, have u?



Play underhand...... ha.

darren tt that ass up thing on purpose for this shot. haha! he's adorable.
back to prawn fishing, terence. LOL
Darren, Victor and terrence , outside thai disco
This is darren. Happy go lucky guy.


I WASN'T SCRATCHING MYSELF ALRIGHT?






She bangs, she bangs


At vivo. Sorry, photos not in order, HEE . These were taken before we head down to siloso!

MORE BOOZEEEE.... super happy MAN~~
Me and james! My all time favourite designer!!
Me and jody!
Love this gang, excluding the guy in black tee.

NEW YEAR'S EVE WAS A BLAST IN SILOSO BEACH PARTY!!!!!

Things to do this year.
- Quit smoking
- Get an office job
- Study hard
- Get a Car
- Overseas with besties
- MORE PARTIES!


Anyway , i met this new guy, not really new thou, have spoke about him before, that is darren. It's pretty fast I must admit but he's so so so so much different from zs. But still, there's some things which zs can do and he couldn't, vice versa. Like, he's quite slow in replies in msgs and doesn't joke much thou but zs always have fun with me thru sms . Well, I can't compare, it won't be fair at all but now that I have darren which he actually propose to me on New year, I would like to start life afresh with him. He's really nice and have lotsa nice friends around him but one thing that isn't good about him is he drinks alot and by tagging along to drink with him, one day i will be a master the god of drink.... high tolerance for liqour which is bad cause then, it's hard to get high. -__-

I can't say that I love him now but I really really like him alot. I haven't actually been thinking of zs till his friend called and asked about him. I felt bad because I promise him I'd wait for him willingly but I kept thinking about the way he treated me, i don't think it's worth it and since someone out there are more than willing to treat me better, I feel that i should grab that chance.

But whatever it is, I hope he will be happy down the road. He's not that bad thou i guess?



Anyway more updates thru Facebook. Been lazy to blog! plus have more videos there!

It's a brand new year but my life isn't getting any better. What I really want? Just a simple life. No complicated. But somehow or rather, seems like I m fated to lead such life.

Or maybe I m the cause of it. I always have hard time communicating with people and therefore people always misunderstood my actions. 

Scorpio Bitches (Reflects)

They can overplay their hands, however and be over possessive and even cruel and violent, both physically and verbally, when annoyed. 

Never forget a hurt or a slight. For the typical Scorpio, forgiveness can be difficult.Much of its knowledge is not easily communicated because it is beyond most people's understanding. 

When Scorpios try to communicate what they see, understand, or feel, they are often badly misunderstood. 

They then tend to keep silent because the misunderstanding that results from silence is better than the misunderstanding that comes from failed communication

one that will harbor long-term grudges. But Scorpio is also *slow to anger*. If others do not repeat hurts or add insult upon insult, Scorpio is no more vengeful or grudging than any other sign .

She won't choose her friends or lovers lightly; they have to measure up to her high standards. Once you are assured of her love don't worry that it will stray. 

As long as you are faithful and keep her happy a Scorpio will almost never betray you for physical promiscuity and for pay you back every kindness you gave her and to people whom she thinks deserving.""

Scorpio is probably the most feared and yet the most revered sign of the zodiac. Most Scorpios would not hurt a fly for they are as gentle, caring, and generous as they can be hard, cruel, and mean. 

It really depends how they are treated.This is a sign which demands respect and usually gets it. Scorpions are highly sensitive, emotional creators who are so easily hurt that they cannot bear to show their feelings for fear of being ridiculed.

Scorpios develop from an early age the ability to control such outer expressions of emotion, and remain dry-eyed. 

Capable of holding a grudge for the rest of their lives. Scorpio subjects are hardworking, generous, and very determined. 

Once they begin a task, they will be dedicated to finishing it.Thye can become obsessively devoted to a person, a cause, or a project.

This is me. Can someone understand me? LIKE PLEASE. So many fucking things happened to me and no one actually understand what's my intention. FOR EXAMPLE. zs... LOOK WHAT I DONE...  I ain't good with words so I use actions but often, he misjudge me.

Have you ever had one of your best friend falling for you? and you hurt your best friend without knowing it? Have you ever love someone who doubts your love? Have you ever have a mother who cares for you in the wrong way? Does your mom go around telling all your friends about your evil past? Have you ever fall for someone and you just wanna lead a simple life with that someone but realised that many things are standing in your way?

Do you have a mother who goes around telling people your things, spoiling your reputation and feels proud about it? and the fuck up thing is, SHE WILL NEVER ADMIT IS HER FAULT.

Sometimes, it may seems childish but I rather not continue this kinda life. I just wanna go away. I just want a simple life.

Just a happy simple life.

Eversince his hp was off, everyday I would call his hp, try a few times a day, hoping that he will pick up.

AHH! it's sat!!! ferry Costa? how do you spell his name... HAHA! is in town. But didn't wanna go. Suddenly, I don't have the clubbing mood. Wanna stay home... and chill with my mochi.


I reckon he went in DB or something. He hasn't contacted me since then. Kinda miss him. There's so much things to do with him but he's just gone. sigh. Maybe he thinking that, I m out there enjoying but yet he's inside there suffering. I ain't. I miss him badly.

I wonder how is he doing inside now. I know it's stupid, after so much shit he caused me , i still think about him. Can't help it.


AHH~~~ Tomorrow gonna meet jos do assignment! Am switching course from marketing to tourism and hospitality! Was because marketing only specifiably focus on marketing whereas latter has more varieties in it!

WEE! New year coming. Am gonna start my life afresh! Time to lead a life like an adult.

I do wonder, is it just me or just that im down on luck. I have to encounter every sitaution people would last think of it. Gossiping will cause the rope to snap. IT WILL.

Maybe i should just limit my friends. Maybe I should stop commenting, Maybe i should start ignoring.

Ironically thou, i miss him . yeah... him him him.

You have got no idea how hurting to know that someone you love denying that he's spreading inane stories about you? Where by witness has acutally prove that he has been personally telling everyone of them.


He's a fucking jerk. He hit someone in camp and that guy is dying, I hope he goes to jail, I hope karma hits on him soon. Fuck you hong zhi sheng. you're FUCKED UP.